After Everything

The foundations for this work emerged in 2021, when my experiments with temporal art happened to coincide with a third woman in my life being diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease. Originally conceptualized as an expression and exorcism of my anxieties regarding the prospect of dementia, After Everything evolved to contemplate the nature of loss through confrontations with temporality. After Everything is composed of three main works: “Memory,” a time-based piece taking the form of a series of watercolor-esque illustrations; “Driven By A Motor,” a visual poem composed of stream of conscious writings; and “Revere 8mm Projector,” a found-object and video sculpture. Exploring the anticipation of loss, complexity of grief, and the implications of mortality, this collection of work both mourns and finds meaning in impermanence.

Memory

This installation consists of a series of illustrations created using a highly fugitive stain. I developed the ink-like medium using using the flower Clitoria ternatea, better known as butterfly pea-flower. My experimentation suggests that in less than one month of consistent exposure to sunlight, the pigment will fade completely. My research into this material happened to coincide with a third woman in my life being diagnosed with Alzheimer's, inspiring me to explore the material's potential for temporal art. The collection is intended to be displayed opposite of an unobstructed southfacing window, without interventions to prevent the images' fading. Best experienced through repeated viewings, the collection confronts the viewer with inevitability of loss, and reflects my own experience with anticipatory grief.

Revere 8mm Projector

"Revere 8mm Projector" is a found object and video sculpture. The work is accompanied by an ambient audio track of crackling flames, and audio taken of a running projector- this can be heard faintly in the background of the included video. Running on a ten minute loop, the imagined projector can be heard weakly, growing louder as if struggling, before sputtering off into silence for several minutes. Originally imagined as a video, the object had been previously set of fire. As such, it smelled of smoke throughout the duration of its display. The sculpture is set aflame with an imagined fire, reflecting the violent ways that friends and family often come to imagine a loved one's terminal illness. Seldom do they share the same horror for their circumstances as we do, but yet they still become a canvas for us to project our own fears of mortality onto.

Filming and editing by Patrick Moser

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